abbott299

Not done this in a while

2007-11-11T23:20:20Z

And i must say its strange

I feel very akimbo tonight

i think college is finally getting to me

missing certain old friedns :(

but making some new ones

not sure how things are balancing out atm.

Party next weekend W00t

lets jus hope i can pull it off

missing my beccalilly

she only went home 2 hours ago ish

:S

i feel silly at times

she still doesnt know how much she means to me

i feel like i fail in my attempts to convey this

and suprisingly for me

i think i subconciously gave up

something i only realised this moment

:S

*rambles*

i need to make up to someone

my sis seems very down atm

im tired and achy from rugby but i feel a writing buzz starting

feeling pretty mechanoly now i think of things..

does noone else feel really introspective when writing these things :S

worst thing is iv jus got this image of my self speaking into some kind of void..

im not really expecting a reply

if im truly honest.

Is it really greener on the other side
Can i change in the turn of a tide
Will life change in the blink of an eye
Nothing we can do but try

One more day,
Maybe another way
Nothing we can do is try

Is this really fixable
Me and my little 'Nukaple'
I think we can pull through
Simply Me
Simply you

One more day
one last time
Nothing we can do but Try

_________________________

Well i must say that was a lil random

XD

i love poetry

but i dunno reading most peoples poetry..
i feel it lacks a buzz

it fails to put a tingle in my spine
or to make me stop and think

which i find very dissappointing

=[

Ah wells

Cya x

ps wtf
why is the melancholy face crying...it means contemplative but unsure

ish

:S

these tears

2007-02-26T21:17:47Z

these tears i shed for you, in the darkness of the night,
full of fear longing and fright,
tears unseen by all but me,
my emotions, hidden form all, for none to see,
by day wrapped within an icy coil,
by night released my hearts turmoil,

another short one

2007-02-26T21:14:35Z

Like a dog to a home,
my heart returns to yours,
a floor to my beliefs,
a door against my pain,
walls against my fear,
my heart away form home

abbott299 @ 2007-02-26T21:03:00

2007-02-26T21:03:52Z

hmmm not too recent, just never got put on here:

Government

Our current government
Contraception to this society’s conception
The cause of all our misconception
The true means of this hatreds resurrection
The cause of all life’s discrimination

Twisting ideals thoughts and theories
Well here’s on of my many queries
What if, No wait just take this into consideration
What if, through our government’s ordination
We sacrificed our free will, beliefs, and equality
Now we stand, nod and bend knee
To a corrupt and twisted government, can’t you see?
They tax corrupt and bleed the whole of this society
Now can’t you see?
How we are captured, bound and tied,
Bound by this franchise,
Yet the thing we fail to realise
Is that this franchise has changed, no longer are they
Fighting for our freedom love and security,
But our blood souls and money.

Surely soon we shall realise
That this government has no compromise
Our lives, completely they are summarised,
Into a group ID
Mosher, Goth, Scally
These ID cards are idealised
As the way to fight terrorism
Something our government idolise
Yet we hide behind the government
Behind Bliar
Who caused this vendetta
In an attempt to make his life better
Then sealed our fate in iron and stone
Left us for the kill, bloody, alone
Surely we shall soon realise
That Al-Quieda
Is’nt the true leader
Of this terrorism
But that leader is one
That person is solely responsible
That person is Blair
And of course
His hush, hush
Puppy, dog bush

My way

2007-02-26T20:33:00Z

I was not born, and brainwashed to tred my fathers footsteps
Instead i was brought up, to make my own life, with my fathers tread,
Brought up unbending, unscruplious, unfed,
Nourished with love, and taught instead,

Taught not to follow my fathers path,
For many stumbles and mistakes does it hath,
Instead told to carve my own way,
My father watching over me, day by day,
My thoughts are mine, my way, my way,

My fathers tread, steady, strong,
His life, happy, healthy, long,
His footsteps, heavy, tired deep,
winding path, unseen pits,
One lonely life longing only for sleep,

My journey, unstarted, my path unseen,
My future unknown, nothing but a dream.

updating

2007-02-26T20:15:02Z

Do not search for me in the ocean,
for i can no longer make ripples in the clear water.
Do not listen for my voice in the wind,
for i can no longer sing a sweet, quiet, harmony.
Do not hold vigil at my last resting place,
for i have passed that place an age ago.
Do not look for me in the forests,
for i can no longer make a cool shadow on the cold earthen ground.
But look for me in your heart,
for only there, is where i can now truly be found.

random

2006-12-13T21:45:27Z

hmmm im writing letters atm, i should do it more, but the lack of stationary and my handwriting is a severe discourage ment, so i apologise for anyone recieving a letter soon

new poem

2006-11-10T22:11:50Z

new poem whoo lol :D

Do not search for me in the ocean,
for i can no longer make ripples in the clear water.
Do not listen for my voice in the wind,
for i can no longer sing a sweet, quiet, harmony.
Do not hold vigil at my last resting place,
for i have passed that place an age ago.
Do not look for me in the forests,
for i can no longer make a cool shadow on the cold earthen ground.
But look for me in your heart,
for only there, is where i can now truly be found.

another poem

2006-11-07T16:50:20Z

sorry im still stayin political ppls, (i.e. bec and egg, does ne1 else actually read these?) lol but ah wells if you do you should look out for the manic mesh fanzine, and the hating love but loving hate zine, in which both my poems are published, ask me if you want a copy

50 states of separation

If segregation is outlawed,
Then this system is surely flawed,
It exists more than ever,
Progress; tied strongly by this tether,
Not found in cities or towns,
But across countries and continents,
Inequity of life, never put to sounds,
Never spoke of, always there,
Chained in, with no-one to care,
A world ensconed,
Forever, collectively cloned,
Pure white, honest, blond,
Beautiful, caring, loving, fond.

A separated world,
Red, Blue, White,
Blood, cold, cloud,
Stripes of borders,
Eternally divided,
Targets of stars,
Never to be reached,
For how can we be governed,
By a country of United Parts,
50 parts - yet not one heart.

The 50 parts,
Guns, bombs, bullets,
Destroy countries with carts,
Love, Charity,
Equality, ever shunned,
By far outnumbered,
But never out gunned,
For what would be stronger,
50 United Parts,
Or,
The whole worlds United Hearts.

new poem

2006-10-29T18:33:46Z

no fear

to have no fear,
isnt to not care,
but to easily,
be able to cope,
estimate and adjust,
or to simply belive,
to trust, to love,
to care for and ideal,
a belife, a path,
my path, so much that,
i am fully ready,
to accept my own consequences,
my own judgement, good or bad,
comes from my belifes, it comes from me.
so if i belive wrong, so what, i belive,
i do not follow others,
i avoid the well beat path,
i carve my own, the path of the swan,
the swans path,
i give myself totally to my path, my belife,
my life,
to do or to die, all or nothing, this,
is my path,
for me, a failure with guns blazing is better,
than cold, uncontested defeat.
for i would rather lose by my own game,
than have to adopt anothers ideals,
you may take my life, yet still,
my ideals remain mine.
So i have no fear, no fear of pain,
injury or death, as my own worst enemy,
is me,
only i can take away my ideals, my beliefs,
to everyone else, i am invincible,
nothing they throw at me can stop me
from taking another step,
another attempt,
at following,
my own
true
path.

hmmmm

2006-10-07T09:22:38Z

ok so its only just hit me how lucky I am, most people spend their whole life searching for the one person they will never part from, their one soul mate, but i realised iv kinda got three.

i have the love of my life rebecca, whom i love and shall always be with :) we are true soul mates.

Also i have egg one of my closest friends, shes like my lil sister, even thoguh shes older thn me XD lol but we know how things work.

Last but not least i have amy mottram, another of my closest friends, shes always there for me and im always there for her no matter what :)

Also i would like to apologise about the recent rift between the last two and me ;S) im sorry

any ways iv realise im amazingly lucky to have all of these people in my life :) i thank you so much :D

abbott299 @ 2006-10-06T15:39:00

2006-10-06T15:41:16Z

Another broken promise,
im not there again,
i told you that i would be,
here to help you through the pain,
here to hold you,
and to wipe away the tears,
but im not,
now im just another failure,
my promise has gone to pot,
i honestly thought i could be,
to always be,
here for you,
whenever,
forever,
but thats just another part of me,
now chewed up,ripped apart,and spat out,
because ive now realised,
the times you really need me,
are the times when im not there,
now i just want to tell you,
that i do really care,
im just not there,
again,
and your upset,
and your upset because im not there,
even when i promised i would be,
so here i am,
just another failure,
my promise gone to pot.

hmmm

2006-09-23T10:07:03Z

ok this is my most recent poem, i was getting annoyed about ppl always stereo typing chavs as some big crime organisation! it was just bugging me, cause you do get decent chavs, take it form me, iv lived there, been there so it just got to me.

Home

Back to where I was born
Back where the pavement was greyer
The grass was certainly greener
On the other side,
There was no grass
Back there was pavement soil blood and glass
Dark black alleys, still running on cobbles

Still running on cobbles
Click, clack, click, clack,

I know where I belong
I belong back there
Back in the back streets
Back on the cobbles
A place where I belong, back in the dark,
Back to the coloured in, broken down park,
Back, back to 'tha Hood',
With its beloved soil soaked in blood,

Still running on cobbles
Click, clack, click, clack,

Nothings changed, I've grown,
Nothings changed, back in the place where ruined lives are sown,
Rubble surrounds, two blocks away, a different life,
This side? Nothing but strife,
Making end meet, and almost impossible feat,
Just another of life’s hard streets,
A hard path, a hard life,
Receive no quarter give none back,
All these white kids, running around,
Trying oh-so-hard to be black,
Searching, searching no escape to be found,

Still running on cobbles
Click, clack, click, clack,

I know where I belong, so back to the streets of my birth,
Call me scally, chav or just street scum,
I am what I am, a proud product of society,
Part of an under kept ethnology,
Kept down by a society, whose blood is money,
Whose money is blood, you’re born on top, or down below,
But you must stay where your seed is sown
The rich complain about the scum, they hold them back,
They hold them down,
The scum embrace the system, it moulds them together,
Still running on cobbles
Click, clack, click, clack,

But I’m away,
I escaped the system,
Escaped form their heels,
Escaped from their hells,

Still running on cobbles
Click, clack, click, clack,

New friends, new life, the Chav changes,
An insight into the mind of a Chav;
‘Do, a life of no regrets, no remorse.’
Never show love affection or weakness,
Others will exploit you for it,
In the end, you can take the chav out of the streets,
But not the streets out of the Chav,
The streets are home,
The streets are ours,
The streets hold our cause,
Away from broken homes,
Broken bodies, broken bones,
Broken minds many clones,

Still running on cobbles
Click, clack, click, clack,
Back home I go,
Back to my old life,
Old friends, old strife,
Back to my Home,
Back to my Streets,
Changed I have,
Yet, accepted I am,
The old ways are ingrained,
By the machine, by society
Deep down it dwells,
A beast you call,
But not control,

Still running on cobbles
Click, clack, click, clack,

But I’m not going home,
Not back there,
Some say
‘Home is where the heart is’
We say
‘Home is where the hatred is’
Broken homes, in run down zones,
Nothing good is left there, nothing but hatred,
My life is my own, my only possession,
Trusting, caring, giving: none,
My life, I am the only important one,
Free in my mind,
Free on my streets,

Still running on cobbles
Click, clack, click, clack,

The streets, the streets are in my bones,
They are a part of me; yes I am a chav,
A chav with a side parting, jeans and a hoody,
But Chav-I-Am.
Fashioned by society,
The streets are in my bones,
The streets are in my blood,
My blood is on the streets,
I am the streets,
As much as the streets are me,

Still running on cobbles
Click, clack, click, clack,

But this is society’s due,
Keep me down, I rebel harder,
Chavs, we return,
Harder. Faster. Quicker.
The largest minority,
We overshadow the minority,
Yet we live on the minority, so see,
We are Chavs, He, She and Me,
We are the horrors of society,
The product of insensitivity,
Our lives ran by yet more cruelty,

Still running on cobbles
Click, clack, click, clack,

Politicians kept us down, they caused this,
Leaving us nothing but the streets,
These we took, the streets our own,
There are more of ‘Us’ than them,
We know this, they know this,
They think ‘so what?’ but…
Wong answer,

Still running on cobbles
Click, clack, click, clack,

Too long have we been kept down,
Too long on our cobbles,
Too long out of your light,
Now is the time for this fight,

Still running on cobbles
Click, clack, click, clack,

For we are the dark antagonism of society,
Freedom our only priority,
We have nothing, own nothing, want nothing,
So in the end, we have nothing to lose,
Nothing to lose but these chains,

again im still looking to get published, so if anyone hears any thing pls get in touch.

hmmm

2006-09-23T10:04:43Z

ok well i wrote this one, but kinda lost steam towards the end, needs a few more verses, will let you know if its updated though Oh great, oh fuck, Now she’s just another chapter in the history books Yes all because of me, My inability to decide and just to say the right things, At the right time, I told her ‘I’m gonna’ be here for you baby’ ‘Just talk to me Il make things alright’ ‘It’ll all be ok you’ll see’ ‘Don’t worry just leave things to me’ But hey ho I’ve done it once again Fucked it all up once again Now she’s there inflicting self pain Her blood goes a-trickling down the drain

another one

2006-09-23T10:02:59Z

Sorry just doesn’t cut it

Sometimes sorry just doesn’t cut it
Some times you step too far you just think ‘fuck it’
You’re too far now there’s no going back
No matter how much you want it your lines gone slack
The safety nets gone your now out on a limb
The odds of this sorting are now very slim
But you’ve got to keep fighting
Some way some how there’s gotta be a way
To sort this out, the way may be bleak
But serious the last thing you want to do
Is fuck this more, going off on a freak
Just confusing matters more
Just keep at this and hopefully
That’s just maybe, hopefully, god willingly
You can sort this through

And if you’re serious you will
Just keep working
Yes it may be your fault
It may not
But just keep working
Determination shows summat
Persistence! You really wanna make this work?
Well life aint all swings and roundabouts
Its more suicide notes and fall outs
But you want things to work out?
You just gotta sort ‘em out

abbott299 @ 2006-09-23T11:00:00

2006-09-23T10:01:23Z

I want to talk
But there nothing I want to say
An nothing I want 2 hear
All this form fear
Of letting sum1 near
You let someone close in this world how we living
In this world that we living along with hatred an self killing
You let someone close then they go
Then life stops, drops, stops an’ just loses the flow

Some times you jus want to take tings slowly
Other times fast, just depends
Life goings on friends and trends
Friends and trends
Fuck about friends
Keep close friends
Fucked up trends
Moshed out
Full of hating
Full of spacing
Not letting people close
when they want to help
Keep problems 2 your self
All people want to do is help

Letting someone close
so close, amazingly close
Only to find their hearts close…
d, they were jus playin’ u along
female ‘playa’ wannabes
fucking about with boys
left right and centre
Well our hearts aint toys
So leave us alone
Stone cold alone
Jus don’t bother we don’t want none of you
Or your playa mates too

Implying things too, people get the wrong idea
We all living in this world of fear
A fear of insults, slur and pain
Well my meaning couldn’t be more plain,
Take it at face value
Yea it’s an insult but I’m only playin’
Sorry if I offended dint mean to but you know
Sometimes we just get caught in the flow
And keep yappin’ bout things we shouldn’t
Id of stopped but I couldn’t
Just know my loves there
And that I really do, believe it or not care.

You got to live life to the fullest
Because life can be taken away
In this world that we living
You never know when it going to be your last day
Say what you need to say
When you need to say it
You might not get a chance to say it again
But the message from me is plain
Let people close, talk, and escape the pain

OK well these are a few of my poems, iv still got a few more somewhere, im looking for a publisher, so if anyone knows anyone, pls leave me a message

another short one

2006-09-23T09:59:45Z

To be free

To be loved without conditions
To travel without cost
To live without struggle
To be without want
To fly without effort
To act without consequence
To exist without care
To exist without hate
To exist without curiosity
To die without pain
To be free you need all of this
And as you can see no one can truly be
free

jus a short one

2006-09-23T09:59:02Z

Love is

Love is
Everything that you were
Everything that you are
Everything that you will be
Because love is…

another

2006-09-23T09:58:25Z

ok this one was from bout yr 7 lol but i still like it!

Hope is…

Hope is warm
Hope is nourishing
Hope is ongoing
Hope is sustaining
Hope is everlasting
Hope is stubborn
And hope is strong

Hope is the farmer’s last seed
Hope is the weary mans friend
Hope is the last when others have failed
Hope is the warrior’s last stand
Hope is the soldiers last shot
And the archers last arrow

Hope is the friend who carries you through
The long and the short
The thick and the thin
The wide and the narrow
Who stands with you to the very end

Because to hope is to believe
And to believe is to receive

yet another..

2006-09-23T09:57:26Z

sorry bout the spamming! but i want ppls comments on these!

Beautiful tears

Eyes, the window to the soul

Some people can’t talk, are locked doors to the world
Keep their emotions quiet and secreted away
Some people love talking, but play the world false
Forever changing their minds trying to please everyone
Listened to by all, believed by none
In the end everyone sheds tears,
Clear, beautiful tears.

But the eyes betray you all
The eyes are open books
Every emotion laid bare, for anyone to read
All emotions are naked in your eyes
No emotion is coverable
Not even by the clear, beautiful, tear.

more poems

2006-09-23T09:56:05Z

yet another poem, please comment!

Why

Why are we here?
What is the point?
We exist, but why?
To live? to learn? to love?
Gods, is there really anyone up above?
or just a dying mans dream?
For slowly we die, as one and a whole,
We hope, and we hope, that we have a 'pure' soul.
To live on after, to pass through death,
Time gets shorter, breath by breath,
Is there a point, is there a reason?
Is this jus another of the souls seasons,
Is there a life after death?
A heaven or hell,
Whatever the answer we hide in a shell,
A shell of religion, a dying mans dream,
Brainwashed we are, with neither love nor fear,
By the biggest scam in the whole of existence,
'Give us your money, time, and mind'
And we will guarantee a life after death,
The loop hole in this, nobody sees,
Because what if its false, a lie, a dream,
You can have your money time or life back,
It's over,
It's gone,
You've lost.

poems

2006-09-23T09:55:15Z

Howdy, well i seem to have a lot of poems stored on my comp here, so im gonna upload em onto here, jus in case some ppl havent read a few, also look for my poems in both the manic mesh manchester fanzine, or <3 hating love, but loving hate <3 fanzine, both published by my friend egg.

Home
they say home is where the heart is,
i say home is where the hatred is,
never a moments peace,
confinded to my room, my lil cocoon,
hides me from my world, my home my family,
half beat half dad, bitched out mum,
all i wanna do is help,
without the snide comments,
lil quips,
failed humor,
constant screams from brothers,
i try to help, but then iv drawn their focus on me,
so back into the cocoon i go, to have mother tell me im drifing,
yes im drifting,
drifting form the cold harsh insanity that has become home,
they say home is where the heart is,
my homes where this all started,
my homes filled with hatred,
it seeps with pain, all i want is out!
out of my cocoon,
out of this house,
out of this life,
i want out, i want release,
space
space to be just what i wanna be,
just how i want to be,
with no judjement,
from my bitchfilled mum, or my half beat half dad,

but i love her, my mother dear,
shes just so intent on seeing me trying to drift,
that she fails to see, our biggest rift,
what is really important to me,
i jus want to be, what i really wanna be,
i just something my mum can be happy with.
I appreciate what you allowed for me,
I just want you to be proud of me,
See you're, unbreakable, unmistakable
Highly capable,
A livin legend too, just look at what heaven do
Send us an angel, and I have you
and i love you,
but why cant you see,
so much you mean to me,
tied up in your own cocoon,
jus wanting to blame this on me,
im the one drifting, and i am cause thats all that you think of me.
change your mentality and approach, and things might work,
until then, goodbye.

a rant or two...

2006-08-18T12:08:19Z

howdy ppl not updated in a while, had a pretty busy summer, least ive not been very bored!

hmmmm wel towards the end of term haz finally got with tash, they had liked each other for weeks i jus had to push him into asking, or letting me ask for him! but anyway there both happy now, this just leaves rice on his bill! he know is over amy, telling her so himself! but he stil billyed!

well after that, we had all work shops in school for our carrers day, but it was so CRAP just had some guy stood at the front groping his ass! then they didnt have any workshops i wanted :(

hmmm after this we had work shadowing! so i got to spend a day of watching yr 2 doing PE :( it was also crap!

SPORTS DAY!...was crap!
had a deepthroat contest with bec on an ice lolly! she gt pwnd! :D lol bec had to run, she didnt want to but got forced! :( awww you did well bby! i did shot putt, and came 6th out of 8 so i didnt do too bad...

on the last day of term before the mass, me tom and haz develop an elaborate plan to conquer mt.everest and turn it into the worlds largest ski slope :D lmao it was SO funny! they think we will all die in the process, get a lil plaque: the is testimony to tom nick and harry, all died trying to make this mountain a funner place, unfortunately nick died with out his beloved mush. ROFL

went on a double date with haz an tash, which turned out to be the biggest cringe fest of the year for tash! awwww ikkle innocent harry! XD ah well i shal not embarras them further!

HOLS! i went away with bec and her family and really enjoyed it :D it was great to never have to leave bec for a whole week :D:D:D went swimming in the sea and had lots of BREAD :D:D omg the bread form the bakery there was sooo nice :D!!!

i got home and had a massive row with my mother! jus cause bec has introduced me to all of her friends and i now have a social life, my mum hates me cz she never sees me! but she rly expects me to sit down stairs watching kiddy crap on tv, or gardening/home improvement programmes? erm no thanks mother!

swimming! went swimming with bec and co. eddy dumkins ran off early cause we freaked him out too much! XDXD the freaking power of nickael is immense!

we also went for a game of footy in heaton and took a picnic, i was given nickaels home made fried rice, and witnessed a new sort of heaven! omg its soooo nice! he promised to show me how to make it too :D:D yay!

grandad, hmm over the hols my grandad had a stroke, he ended up in hospital, in intensive care, they then found he had two cancerous tumors in his bowels, a few days later he had another stroke, unfortunately he died :( my whole family will miss him he was a truly great man :)

bowling hmm becs random bunch, plus jen and cheng ben and craig all went bowling, me and nickael decided to indue jen and cheng to our random group, cheng entered willingly but we kinda scarred jen for life! :( sorry jen!

funeral was yesterday, it was a nice service, we all shed a fair few tears over our grandad he would have liked the service though. the waka was pretty good, all the adults got pissed, and we had a 3hour game of snooker, none of us could play at all! XD met even more of my family i didnt know existed! O.o 'i have an aunty alice?' lol but it was nice to see everyone.

today, becs being all funny with me, im rly worried about her. everyone is overly worried about me cz im not upset bout grandad (we said our goodbyes, and we knew we loved each other!) eggs saying im drifting away from her, i dont want to! she my lil sis! i think its just cause weve not had a proper chat cause im never on msn much nemre! and iv not seen her in weeks :( amy also all shook up over matt, he spending all his time with jordan an she doesnt see him at all, he wont answer her calls or texts :S anyways later on im off swimming with bec and co. hopefully cheng and haz if they turn up (fingers crossed)

ah wells until next time,

signed

teh camp ninjah!

quick update

2006-06-27T20:08:53Z

ok.. so today hasnt rly bin interestin nutin much 2 write bout erm haz finds out he has two admirers at dinner alice an..sum1 tasha let slip rofl an now tashas bein ignored by tht person lol. erm spent the day with becca an she wrote me a letter sayin she runnin off with emma to gt married in las vegas :( *heartbreaks* but it turned out to be a big joke :) so tht was ok in the end. nutin much else happened rly eggs gone all funny on me agn :( dno y hope your ok sis

ah wel cyas xx

hmm not updated in awhile....

2006-06-26T15:34:55Z

ah wel hey agn ppl (egg an becca) lol dus ne1 else actually read this?

ah wel rly need 2 update mre..but iv bin @ beccas alot :D lol neways thursday nigh i was at beccas..which i wont go into detail bout :P lol on friday i was all on me bill cz becca went out with sum randomers :(

saturday: was a good day an set up many of the private jokes between me n becca tht went on all weekend.. such as 'the camp ninjah' 'it's STILL a black bird!!' *pokes* *shifty eyes* 'it was harry' rofl an so many more! so we went round heaton for a bit and then went back 2 her place.

Sunday: personal jokes continued never seen becca so happy smiley an she lyk almost died 5 times of laughin fits...lol was gud (love you becca) neways we went to sum horse show ting an evry1 gt bored so we headed bk to beccas an thn her family went out..{insert fun explicit stuff here}...neways family came bk an we ate sum random rice thing that was in the cupboard which was nice, oo watched happy gilmore as well at sum point which had becca in stitches alot!

Monday (today) hmmm kind of a bleh day.. mum an ben were both in hospital this morn..stil not heard how thy are :S jus waitin for them to come home now (bens at a m8s house i think...) an thn i dno jus a bad day, i was rushin this morn an was stressed thn gt 2 school an had amy awwwin ova me for some reason. meh. then had every1 goin omg nick your hair..the lads liked it the gals dint..evry1 laughed then the gel was broken at dinner by harry an thn evry1 laughed evn mre an i had mr harrison crackin jokes bout it... ah well the tour was ok i got out of 3hr of lessons which was gud an thn dinner was ok minus the hair ruinin, maths was crap cz evry1 was laughin history i spent in sum meetin thing for prizegivin, but thn had lil kis whistlin at me on met an some chavs shoutin abuse at me all the way home. so by the time i got home i was close to swingin for someone, but im non-violent of course now-a-days so im not allowed to that kind of stuff, but god help the first team i play in the new season! I WANT BLOOD!!!! lol sorry ppl jus gitn a lil stressed atm.. ah wel il b ok

gna b off nows cya xx lv you becca xx

p.s you were right bout wa you sed when we were walkin to the met becca, im sorry, jus not a good day..im sorry bout it all though! :( love you soo much xxx